Instead of holding my breath and waiting for some sort of decision to be made I've decided to work on myself. I needed to get my mind off of this whole mess (it's definitely a mess right now) so I've been going to the gym a lot. I've been eating healthier, cleaning, anything that makes me not think about how I professed my love for you best friend and he isn't reciprocating.
At this point I can tell he thinks things will just go back to the way they were before but I'm not so sure about that.
He interviewed for a job this weekend that would move him to Chicago and it went really well. Part of me wants to look for jobs in Chicago and the other part of me want to do my own thing and show him that I don't need to follow him. Ugh this stinks!
Sunday, January 30, 2011
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
Falling in love with your best friend: How to handle it
2011 started with a bang. This bang included burying my iPhone in the Denver snow, never to be found again. One would think that would have prevented me from doing what I did the next night...
I guess that's the issue with having a big group of friends who all get along so well! All so digitally connected. YAY! If only my friends thought this was bad idea I wouldn't be in this situation.
I texted my best friend "I love you". His response "I love ya too". This would be the part where a normal sober person would stop and cut their losses. NOT ME! My reply: "No, I LOVE YOU" and then an even better response from him "We'll talk tomorrow". Couple the thought of having this conversation, which I'm sure will ultimately end in rejection for me, with a hang over and a Bears loss and you have the worst Sunday EVER!
I let it go a couple days. Apparently he thought I had forgotten. Of course he wasn't going to bring it up! But we finally talked. He didn't completely brush it off but I'm not sure if that's making it any better. We're in this state of limbo. He's worried about losing me as friend because he cares about me and values my friendship so much. But doesn't he know it's already different?
I thought this would be so easy. I would tell him how I felt and he would say he's been feeling the same way and we would live happily ever after. I guess I didn't consider any other option. SHOOT!
So I'm wondering, where's the movie that tells us what to do?
I guess that's the issue with having a big group of friends who all get along so well! All so digitally connected. YAY! If only my friends thought this was bad idea I wouldn't be in this situation.
I texted my best friend "I love you". His response "I love ya too". This would be the part where a normal sober person would stop and cut their losses. NOT ME! My reply: "No, I LOVE YOU" and then an even better response from him "We'll talk tomorrow". Couple the thought of having this conversation, which I'm sure will ultimately end in rejection for me, with a hang over and a Bears loss and you have the worst Sunday EVER!
I let it go a couple days. Apparently he thought I had forgotten. Of course he wasn't going to bring it up! But we finally talked. He didn't completely brush it off but I'm not sure if that's making it any better. We're in this state of limbo. He's worried about losing me as friend because he cares about me and values my friendship so much. But doesn't he know it's already different?
I thought this would be so easy. I would tell him how I felt and he would say he's been feeling the same way and we would live happily ever after. I guess I didn't consider any other option. SHOOT!
So I'm wondering, where's the movie that tells us what to do?
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